The blog was been published since 2017. It’s been 3 years when this started. This blog is just prior to released some inner thoughts. But way back, sometimes I couldn’t released any of it that much. I have grown so much but I think I came to low grading myself today. I dont understand, but I feel I am not intelligent and good enough for myself. I always looked myself day by I day. I always have been unlucky this month. The prior issue isn’t that understandable by my own opinion. I couldn’t be myself but I dont understand what I feel day by day when this 2020 comes. It’s just so frustrating to see myself like this. I hope I could get better today. I dont blame everyone else about my unlucky situation. But I dont know, I came to conclude that I become lazy and unlucky day by day.
I feel pathetic. I can’t even understand myself. Internet too came across to my anxiety and it grows deeper.
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The Cynical World with Thoughts 